In the past year or two, I’ve grown less and less confident or at the least interested in conversation. This tendency has generally restricted itself to verbal exchanges. Electronic typed messaging and email – no noticeable difference.
I’ve slowly withdrawn from what once would have been regular interactions. At work, at local group functions, at conventions, I keep more to myself.
I have plenty of theories on why I’ve done this. They’re probably all bullshit, or genius, or both. I think a variety of factors have contributed, I’m not going into them right now.
I told a friend about this a couple of weeks ago. We then talked a bit about it and then went on to talk about many things going on with us and with “the world.”
Since just mentioning that to her I’ve gained a step or two, or at least a little more comfort with how I am…so there’s that.